不要讓嫦娥笑我們髒
坐在這裡打電腦跟唸書, 覺得頭好油又癢癢, 全身不對勁, 才突然發現...我兩天沒洗澡了ㄟ!!! XD~ 哈哈哈~! 星期四晚上要洗澡的時候, 因為好冷又在趕作業, 想說睡一覺起來再洗好了. 結果昨天睡過頭, 趕火車都來不及了, 換好衣服就殺出門. 在Providence一天就累翻了, 回來都不能動, 想說今天跳完肚皮舞再洗好了, 於是, 哈哈哈, 真的是兩天沒洗澡了ㄟ!!! 我覺得超屌的ㄟ!!! 原來住在這種超冷的地方, 不洗澡真的也不會發臭ㄟ, oh yeah~!!!好, 我知道錯了, 我等下一定會去洗澡的.
I miss my Cranies... *Linking*
昨天上課遇到Sarah, 他很高興地跟我說他們去Enrique家吃auction飯的事. 當一群很久不見的Mediterraneans聚在一起講廢話的時候, core teams自然而然變成破冰的話題. Sarah說當其他人問他他的core teammates有誰的時候, 他講一講大家都昏倒了~! XD~
“So Sarah, who was on your core team?”
“Um…we got Jesus…”
“Oh, you must have had a fun team!”
“…we also got Ted…”
“Really?! How could they put Jesus and Ted together?!”
“…and we also got Roxanne…”
“WHAT?! Then did you guys ever do WORK?!”
Sarah一跟我講我就笑翻了!!! 沒錯, 一般人對我們team的看法就是學校怎麼能把全Mediterranean最瘋狂的三個人湊在一起, 哈哈哈~ 整個上學期其實過的非常混亂, 一方面要適應新環境, 一方面功課又是重到一個不行, 但也不知道為什麼, 當站在現在回頭看的時候, 一切都變的好像有趣了起來, 尤其是跟我親愛的core team相處的時光, 於是我突然發現, 在這學期以後就重新分班分組的情況下, 我好想我的core teammates!!! 我好想我的Cranies!!! >_<~~~ 好像從來沒有為大家正式介紹過我們Cranies的強大陣容, 今天一定要好好來抒發一下: (依姓氏筆劃排列, haha~) Mediterranean Cranes 地中海班白鶴組: (但從我開始以後我們都叫我們自己Cranies, yo yo) 
Jesus Benavides – 老墨, 非常非常地瘋狂跟好笑, 最喜歡講的話就是you know. 每次笑都慢半拍, 反而把場子弄得更好笑. 沒事就喜歡跟Ted兩個人跟國中生一樣地講黃色笑話, 被我聽到我就會叫他們閉嘴, 有一次還拿我的MIT小猴一直作猥褻的動作, 哈哈哈~ 但在他智障的外表下, 他…是個會計師! 真是我的媽~
Chris Chuang – 父母都是台灣人的ABC, 很倒楣地被我叫成Christal Ball, 本來他非常抗拒這個爛綽號, 但現在他也認了, 哈哈~ Christal Ball是全team最小的人, 但跟我似乎最談的來, 他常說我是最棒的core teammate, yo! 他也是ABC C-Fxn我的主持搭檔
Sarah Dubauskas – 我這輩子看過頭髮最金的人, 金到深處無怨尤!!! 雖然後來我對Sarah比較負面的個性會感到壓力很大, 但仔細想想他真的也是個很friendly的人, 我們從orientation week開始, 可能是隊上只有我們兩個女生的關係, 常常做什麼都在一起, 也要一起對抗隊上白痴男生的邪惡勢力, 我也是很想Sarah的~
Ted Hamilton – 我活到現在遇到可以說是最聰明跟最好笑的人!!! 聰明跟好笑的程度是全班公認的, 大家都喜歡他. 對家鄉Iowa有種莫名的情感就算了, 我真的完全不懂為何Pants, Mustaches之類的東西可以讓他完全地興奮起來. 但在他搞笑的外表下有顆細膩的心, 如果我出了什麼狀況, 他總是第一個關心的, 是我的Mr. Hammy
Brian Jordan – 我的BJ. J BJ其實有很不好的意思, 但是他喜歡我們叫他BJ, 因為他老婆叫AJ, 哈哈~ BJ是Cranies裡面唯一的LFM, 就是管理與工程雙學位的學生, 所以是個狠角色, 但每次喝醉了就會被我照出很好笑的照片, 然後大家就會虧他虧到死. BJ那天在BHP喝醉, 竟然單手就把我抱起來, 嚇死我了OMG
Chris Lee – 小時候就來美國發展的老韓, 再Johns Hopkins唸大學的時候就自己創業了. 有次他跟我們分享他投資失敗賠了兩個million的悲慘經驗, 我們完全沒有人同情他, 一直覺得重點在於他怎麼會有兩個million可以賠, 哈哈. 期末OP報告我們一起負責Strategic Lens, 那些胡扯八到的狗屁多虧了有Chris, yo!
我們是最怪的組: 從來不為了寫功課聚在一起, 但總是在各個party看見彼此的身影. 期末大家壓力已經要爆了, Sarah身體又出狀況, Chris L的那句 “No Cranie will leave any Cranie behind!” 讓我好感動. 大家找工作找到瘋的時候, 我跟Ted, Jesus就在幻想我們應該要去Hollywood開一家studio, 非常有我們的style, studio的名字都想好了, 就叫 "Jesus Rox Ted" 或 “RoxTeddy and Jesus,” 哈哈笑死我~! 我們大家也都非常活躍, 七個人裡面就出了Ted一個President of Innovation Club, 我一個Senator of MIT Sloan Senate, Chris L是上學期MIT Sloan+HBS VC Conference的organizer. 每次在BHP之類的場合, 當別人跟我抱怨都看不見自己的core teammates出現的時候, 我總是說 “My core teammates are everywhere!” I'm really proud to be a Cranie! >_<~~~ 當選Senator之後, Ted是第一個恭喜我的人. 他的爛message只有三個字: “Remember your Cranes!” 哈哈開什麼玩笑, 才不會忘記你們呢! (志玲姐姐上身~) 你們永遠都是我最親愛的Cranies!!!
MIT Sloan Senator Roxanne Chen
各位親愛的觀眾, 在本人也弄不清楚為什麼的情況下, 本人當選了本屆MIT Sloan的學生代表啦!!! (Senator at the MIT Sloan Senate) 原本只是因為要選社長可是deadline錯過了, 覺得二年級還是想要掛名做點好事, 所以隨便寫寫政見就去參選Senator Election了. 這學期的Senator補選不是照班級分, 而是全class of '08三百多人裡要選出五個人, 所以難度很高. 沒想到在13個人的競爭之中, 我竟然是當選的人之一!!! 而且五個人裡面只有我一個外國人喔~!!! 太爽啦~ :P:P:P 在這裡特別感謝Dave Reich的力保及眾親朋好友的支持, 本人在履歷上可以多加一行啦~! :)------------------[Student - Master's Announcements] Congratulations New Senators!
Congratulations to the new Adjunct Senators for the MIT Sloan Senate!
-Roxanne Chen-Sylvia Dizon-Jeremy Gilbert-Anjuli Gupta-David LevyWe want to thank all the candidates who expressed interest and want to remind the student body that all committees are open. - Sloan Senators
加油加油!!!
今天跟昨天的開始簡直就是史上最嚴重的對比: 早上竟然被Zuckerman cold-call!!! 我本人一方面case真的是也沒看熟, 二方面整個傻掉, 結果胡言亂語, 教授就當眾給我難看, 太悽慘!!! 當眾ㄟ~!!! >_<~~~ 我真的好難過, 不知道同學們會怎麼看我, 好丟臉喔, 雖然Zuckerman很好心地寫信給我道歉 (沒錯, 教授寫給我道歉, 他其實真的算個好人了), 但我今天又整個人軟掉了... 我不想做作業!!! 不想念case!!! 不想team meeting!!! 誰可以放我一馬?!唉唉沒辦法, 就是要繼續加油呢!!! 氣勢拿出來!!!
邦自己拍拍手
Long weekend像在司馬玉嬌口裡說的一樣, 咻一下就過去了, 前兩天跟遊魂一樣根本沒做什麼好事, 本來想說今天一定會是痛苦的一天, 要唸case, 趕作業, 小組討論之類的, 沒想到哈哈哈, 竟然有一個超讚的開始! 一大早電話響, 被吵起來後一看又是個Unavailable #, 就是個很懶的接. 在床上滾了兩圈接起來以後, 竟然是Unilever的Peter學長!!! 電話一接起來就說, Happy Gold Pig's Year! I must have waken you up! 真是可愛的學長一枚. 之後的消息更是讓人爽翻天, 他說我星期五一跟Gaston interview完他就去問結果, 沒想到哈哈Mike跟Gaston都超愛我的!!! 而且對於在interviews裡面聊Bon Jovi大家都很開心. XD~ 所以啊, 我已經被considered eligible for this internship position!!! 雖然由於HR的一些鳥事, 實際的offer可能還要等個兩三個禮拜甚至根本不會下來, 但是我真的很興奮! 畢竟Unilever這條線是老娘自己一手牽成的, 從12月就寫信給他們, 求求他們給我們Sloanies一個機會, 到將近兩個月後終於拿到interview invitation, 我已經覺得能夠為所有的Sloanies謀福利的我已經很驕傲了!自己真的很開心的是, 其實這兩個禮拜我一直處於心情很糟的狀況, 尤其是已過的這個禮拜, 動不動就傻傻地以淚洗面. 可是我很乖喔!!! 我都有乖乖上學沒有翹課, 有乖乖寫作業, 有乖乖去各種team meetings, 更有乖乖地準備interviews. 這兩個禮拜來, 連2nd round中間include的加一加, 我做了15個interviews! 15個!!! 我每天等於空堂就去CDO報到, 還請假坐火車一趟, 根本沒有休息, 但是我很堅強, 我告訴我自己要撐住, 我告訴我自己不能醬輕易地就軟掉, 雖然男人的問題很重要 (哈~), 可是我不能讓他影響我找工作的計畫, 我就是要做個堅強的好孩子! 在醬的情況下, 目前拿到1.5個offer, 也還在等其他家的我真的是很感恩. 我也想要邦自己拍拍手, 摸摸頭: 我是個愛哭鬼沒錯, 可是我是個奮發向上的愛哭鬼, 哈哈哈~剛結束我最怕的team meeting回到家, 這兩天又睡的特別少, 好累好累. 在今天有了重新出發的好心情, 雖然不知道可以維持多久到下一次的crash, 但是至少等下我會願意為了我的case們再多衝一會兒. :)Roxy你要繼續加油!!! 你很棒!!!
Just Good Friends
My dear Pighead,
This is a letter for you, though I'm not sure when you'll able to see this. You know what, you almost ruined my Chinese New Year completely, leaving so many question marks in my mind. I still can't believe why it was so hard for you to respond to my honest words on Friday night. I felt, confused, angry, and even a little humiliated. And I also can't believe how I managed to be this patient to have been waiting for your move for so long. I somehow felt I wouldn't know how to face you next time I see you, and I felt you were such a coward to express your true thoughts.However, you know I've never been good at disliking or even hating people -- and I can never hate you. My friends gave me every reason not to talk to you in a short-run, but after second thought, I know it'd only give me more pain when I meet you in person, and you're the one I can't escape. How can I possiblly not see you at school, BHP, C-Functions, or any of our Sloanie parties?! Therefore, I've made this decision: I'll only remember how good you've been to me. I'll still show my biggest smile to you when bumping into you at Tang lobby. I'll still give you a Roxy hug when you get your dream offer, because I know I'll definitely feel happy for you.Thanx for sharing so many sweet memories with me.Thanx for having some great time with me at Warren Center, choosing me as the Teammate of the Day. And we could never hit each other's calfs so at the end I had to let you hit me 3 times to make you the winner. Remember, it was ME that let you win. I didn't lose~ :P
Thanx for teaching me those shxitty accounting problems, though I've never really understood them, ha.Thanx for remembering my needs and collecting the Ohio quarter for me, completing my 2006 collection.Thanx for cat-walking with me at ABC C-Function. We were the hottest modeling partners.Thanx for that stupid dance-off at 141 at Halloween. I lost my Mickey earring that night, but inside I lost more than that because of you.Thanx for appreciating my cookery. You looked so cutely happy when tasting my oyako don. Hey, do you know that cherry jello was made specially for you?Thanx for being able and willing to call my real name. I liked when you put "ruEN" in your messages.Thanx for singing those super silly raps to me all the time, mixing up fuxking and my names inside.Thanx for teaching me weird English and Spanish words, though I still don't know why pants, mustaches, and pork are so attrative to you, haha.Thanx for that super fun Thanksgiving game. Do you remember Jon said it was the best game EVER? It was so silly that I almost laughed to death.Thanx for patting on my head when I felt blue. Thanx for making fun of me when I said I'd passed the Trojan virus to 30 other people. OMG, it was too funny after I found out what Trojan represented here. You know I'm a little crazy -- I don't mind being laughed by you at all.Thanx for whispering "good job" to me after I finished my part of our OP final presentation. Oh, also thanx a lot for taking the first pigs-and-chickens question for me.Thanx for grabbing me into your arms when we tried to proved to people how great Cranies were. Thanx for that big hug at the night I came back. You looked so excited when seeing me -- I hope you were!Thanx for funnily and a little rudely coming to my place name my stuff. What a strategy, ha! Now when I see my broom and doggie dolls I think of you. I decided not to rename them -- after all, they were named by my best core teammate.
Thanx for refering me as beyond fantastic. I hope I'm still your Foxy Roxy and you my Awesome Ted.Thanx for the Iowa T-shirt. Admit it -- I know you missed me during the break, ha! Those ai-yo-wei-ya memories are only exclusive between us, as nobody could understand where the laughing points were.When I'm making the list of our memories, I'm getting some self salvation as well. When I'm making the list of our memories, you're not the heart-breaking killer any more, but my Mr. Hammy as always.Poor you... you don't know what you're mssing. Come on, I'm the hottest gal in Mediterranean and I've been this sweet to you. You must have some problem in your head, ha. As my detaching-from-you process started, I know I may still cry sometimes and may still want to poke your head sometimes, but after I can totally get rid of my expectations toward you, we'll become Mediterranean's coolest guy and gal once again.Maybe you're just that kind of guy as in Bon Jovi's Wild Is the Wind -- You want freedom, not commitments. I'm not sure if you'll be able to change some day, but I do hope you'll still be able to find your true love for life, as I'll find mine too.Hasta la vista, babe! I miss you, and will be missing you, in another form of missing.Yours,Porkface
小小Roxy要振作!
今天又做了個2nd round interview --第一次坐Amtrak.第一次去Providence, Rhode Island.第一次做相當輕鬆愉快的lunch interview.第一次在美國的火車上看風景, 告訴自己要接受一個人打拚的事實, 要打從心底地愛這裡的生活, 這裡的人, 鄉愁過年過節再拿出來就可以了.自從又被喜歡的公司無情的拒絕以後, 加上上下交相賊的處境, 真的是快撐不住了... >_<~ 只好告訴自己要堅強, 還好我在這裡有很愛我的朋友們, 還好我還有好幾個interview機會, 還好我還是the hottest girl from Mediterranean, 還好我煮的飯大家都說好吃, 還好情人節大家要一起過加開party, 還好我有超棒的teammate邦我寫功課... 想想這些貼心的事, 告訴自己也不是那麼孤單, 就傻傻地衝吧! 反正找工作的正事先搞定, 總是會舒坦不少. 加油Roxy!!!
Time to Say Goodbye
累積了一週的氣勢又用完了, 一點不剩, 又到了跟身邊的很多事說再見的時候, 要怎麼打起精神來呢?! 趴在床上, 感覺眼淚在打轉, 但知道自己還有n個case要唸, 忍住回到書桌, 卻還是來blog上瞎說一陣. 要怎麼辦呀?! 要怎麼堅強呀?!Time to Say Goodbye是首有趣的歌, 名字看起來跟聽起來都有一點悲傷, 但它其實是在說要向過去說掰掰, 往前邁向新的旅程, 在這個時候最適合我不過了. 在Spring of 2007, 我又回到沒有人可以依賴的一個人.
Someday I'll be Saturday night
找工作的事總算是柳暗花明又一村, 下午竟然收到Textron的Kaye的信跟電話, 和我說他其實真的很喜歡我, 現在有另一個直接support Corporate Marketing的Senior VP Marketing的缺, 他已經推薦我了, 問我要不要試試看. 我真的好感動啊~ >_<~~~ 雖然這個新冒出來的缺, 連個鬼job description都沒有, 甚至也可能沒有full time的機會, 但總算是我的第一個second round了, 可以去Rhode Island一趟, 沒去過ㄟ~ 雖然還在喬細節, 但至少算是一掃陰霾... 各位親愛的觀眾朋友們, 我開張啦!!!今天VistaPrint的interview很開心地比想像中的容易. 不過被關在小房間裡30分鐘準備case還真是頭一遭, 整個一個半鐘頭的過程也算是我目前最長的一個interview了. 這家公司感覺很有活力, 很有趣, 就等星期一的結果吧, we'll see.唯一幹的一件錯事就是在CDO手賤, 好奇地去翻我們這屆的resume book, 看看大家都是怎麼寫resume的, 結果翻一翻看到哈姆泰德的. >_<~ 看完以後我真的只能佩服自己眼光真的很好, 強者我同學啊!!! 西北除了本科還有個輔系, GPA 3.6多, 更強的是榮譽畢業 (graduated with honor), GMAT 770. 天啊, 他那個滿嘴胡說八道加滿腦亂七八糟的人竟然從本人崇敬的西北榮譽畢業, 我就知道我沒看錯人, 哈哈哈~!!! 唉呀, 但現在說這些又有啥三小路用呢?! 還是走一步算一步吧~
Contradiction
Scott gave me a homework: Write down whatever I'm thinking and accept those thoughts. Only at our second meeting, he asked, "Roxanne, how could you put that big smile on your face when you described those sad feelings?" Gee, good question, Scott, I don't know! I'm totally contradictory: Me A constantly blame Me B for being too silly, while Me B always reminds Me A to be humbler. Alas, no wonder I'm in a mess all the time.Yesterday at Enormous Room, many people told me I was hot and foxy. ("Roxy is Foxy!") Well, of course I felt flattered to hear those words. However as C pointed out to me already, I just couldn't believe those. It's not that I'm not believing my friends, but I just don't see myself as good, even if Emily wanted me to join America's Next Top Model, ha. Oh gee, I know this is not going to get me anywhere, but it's just so hard for me to change my self image any soon.Today I totally went back to Ground 0, feeling like hiding behind everything. I completely lost my courage again. Especially when I saw those pictures, I couldn't help but scream, outloud in my room. He's still so dxxn cute in my eye!!! Captivated was the word he used on me, but now it came all back -- I'm so captivated by his looks, his talks, his jokes, even when he speaks nonsense words all this time -- I like his nonsense, I like when he sings stupid raps with my name in the lines. Even that silly Justin Timberlake song reminds me of him, becuase that was the song when we danced. Sigh, I should have or could have been the queen according to Cowbay, but now I'm just a maid begging this whole bewildering stuff can be over, just because I'm too weak to fight now, even for myself.Somebody kill me pleaseSomebody kill me pleaseI'm on my knee, pretty pretty pleaseKill meI want to diePut a bullet in my headI laughed so hard when I first heard this song from The Wedding Singer, but now I just want to sing it outloud. I hate interviews. I hate pretending I'm good. I hate the fact that every MBA needs to find a summer internship. I hate myself -- the over-obsessed-by-him self.Honesty is the best policy, but I somehow feel my words on the blog this week have been way too honest. To the current me, perhaps writing out is the cure.
